Reality

Ok, reality is kicking in again after the holiday hiatus.  Tonight was the first night back at Tai Chi and, boy, am I aching.  I wanted to practice over the holiday but I had a fundamental problem.  I couldn't remember what to do (aka the 'form').  I had been given a crib sheet and a dvd but could I find either of them?  Could I heck as like!

On top of that I have another issue and, to be honest, I don't know why.  Before going to the class I'm all mopey and trying to convince myself that it's not worth going/it's too much like hard work/I'm too tired/hungry etc.  During the class I concentrate and relax (but still feel a bit of a berk for not being able to remember the form).  After the class I ache but feel good.  So why can't I remember the 'feeling good' before the class and cut out all the feeling sorry for myself because I've got to go out in the dark, wet and cold night? Anyone would think I'm a teenager!

Boh, reality bites (and sucks!)