What happened?!?

Hey, it's Friday night - where did the week go?

I've been working hard, split shifts (morning and evening) but with the afternoons off - I quite like it. Trouble is, all I've done is come home, listen to the radio and flake out... it is sooo hot here. The temperature is probably in the mid thirties but the humidity is very high so I'm sweaty all the time. I'm sleeping naked and uncovered so I'm vulnerable to the mozzies - who are having a feast.

Anyway - good news and bad news this week. Good news is that the sinusitis has almost gone (just a little blocked every now and then) and the crack in my foot has almost healed. Bad news is the filling in my front tooth has fallen out and I can't get a dentists appointment until 19th December (unless I go as an emergency - paranoia rating high, how can they fit in an emergency but not a regular visit?). We'll see how it goes.

I had an email from the man this week. I had invited him to spend New Year's Eve and Day with me and he said he couldn't. I asked why not? Sixty days later he replied. It seems he has a more exciting holiday planned.

I cried for about 20 minutes after I read the email. Thank god for work - it's taken my mind off the email completely and I've been able to process the pain. Every communication from him hurts me in some way - it's probably for the best, a little bit of the love dies each time, I become more accepting of the things that will never be and the regrets become more distant.

Anyway, to end on a positive note - I hope to visit a wildlife/nature reserve this weekend, soak up some sunshine and take some photos. Watch this space.